.:Strawberry Parlour:.

Fri, 25 Dec 2009 21:37:42 GMT

Merry Christmas :3

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Tue, 13 Oct 2009 14:06:46 GMT

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♥ I tend to blurt out too much
♥ I write a lot about school and my crush
♥ I like making friends!

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Plans and Jasmine You

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 11:53:33 GMT

Hello♥

In two hours I'll be taking the train 8D I'll go to Bucharest, and stay there for three days.
I think it will be fun, idk why orz. I'll meet Kami and Nee chan and the project we've set for Jasmine You.

I don't know what reference I had with the band Versailles, but they were at my place, and so was I, and I've seen this man, that looked like a female, dressed up in his purple dress and corset, and had feathers in his brown, curly hair. I thought it was Jasmine, but it wasn't. I've started to cry, and I hugged him. But then I realized , that person was not Jasmine. It was just a copy, a person who looked, danced, moved, and spoke just as he did. Later on, I was singing with them (I don't even know what instrument I was playing, I couldn't be the third guitarist, nor the second bassist), but however. I think we played The Red Carpet Day.
There were three kids that made like Kamijo, in a not-that-funny way.
After that, I slapped those kids and ran after them because I wanted to beat them O_O The Security caught me and those kids and asked us what's wrong, and Kamijo went and told him in his Engrish what actually happened.
And that's all ..
But the scary thing is that I was really impressed of that person who was so alike to Jasmine..
I always have weird dreams. I dream of thinks I don't even think about before I sleep.

By the way, I changed the background and the banner8D

Hmmm...

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 16:16:03 GMT

I found some second hand shops in Pamela's website and it looked like all those frilly dresses are screaming "Mommyyy!" to me --;
I guess I need to build a more realistic wishlist, with things that I can actually afford and it is POSSIBLE to have them, unlike the previous wishlist (scroll down a little). I found better-than-decent Baby items at the second hand, and look quite affordable to me, even tough I don't yet have the money needed just for the headdress. I think I will separately buy each one in this order:

1.First of all, I love this skirt. It is pink and sweet, but still, not too sweet. I'll save for it first because things on Closet Child are always bought >.>

2.Angelic Pretty headdress. Because I love their old, classic sweet style.

3.Baby corset/top. I think it matches the headdress and the skirt, even tough I would like a white blouse instead. I don't want too much pink. But eh, until I'll find a pretty blouse, I'll have this.

4. Baby skirt, again. I couldn't believe how low-priced it is! I really need this one..

These might be my first brand items, so I'd have to work hard for it, even tough I already started and it doesn't really work that well. And as a matter of fact, I can't have an allowance, I don't know why. My mother doesn't give me an allowance because she has her own stupid method. If I want something, she buys it for me. But I guess her method is not available for online shopping. Damn, how I wish I'd visit these shops in person. The prices of their items are NOT a problem. But the shipping and all that stuff pisses me off. It's too tricky.
I'd just go for Pamela's shipping service (thank you, Duplica).

Japanese fuck T_T

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 16:24:11 GMT

I've found this BABY skirt on Closet-Child at omfg 6200 yen. WTFWTFWTF. It only has 2 liiiiiiiiiiittle stains on it, but it looks so purfect and pretty and I want it sooo bad TT_TT It's too cheap and I NEED to have it ;__; The price is definetely NOT a problem. I can save up the money in no time, but the real thing is that the whole site is in Japanese and I can't get a thing. And I WANT this so baaad.
Is there anyone in Europe who can order this for me? Pretty please. PLEASE. I swear I'll pay the price + the shipping from Japan to your country + the shipping from your country to Romania. PLEASE. I'm hopeless and helpless T__T
It's just that I don't have paypal, not even my parents. So I'll money transfer or something but PLEASE. Someone...
TT_TT

Major update Post

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 17:34:02 GMT

Hello~ I'm back with tons of changes. Sorry for the long maintenance.

I've changed the layout, along with the header and the background.

I've got rid of the moodtheme. It wouldn't fit with the current layout, so I just got rid of it. I could have been making a new one, but it's a pain in the ass making all those gifs, a double pain in the ass uploading them, and even a triple pain in the ass the copy/paste you need to repeat for applying them onto your profile.

I re-filled my profile page. I don't know if some of you noticed, but since I renewed my journal with the black damask theme, I had my profile empty because of no resource for the profile codes and all that stuff. So I found this cute profile code, changed the picture into an Amo one and filled it. And I also gave credit for everything.

I have replaced all the userpics into matching Lolita ones. The models are Maki, Asuka and Amo, and the images used are property of Angelic Pretty.

I just thought I might need to write down all the things that happened in the past few days, and I am going to start with Nee chan visiting me. She came saturday, with her sister and mother. And then we took long walks and stuff. It was fun ^^ but she left the next day. Too bad. I wish she could have stayed a lot more. But let's hope she'll be here again sometimes~
My sister came here yesterday. I don't know if I like it or not, she might be funny and stuff with her "tough love", but sometimes she is annoying, stubborn and makes fun of me●´д｀●) But eh, this is what big sisters like to do.

Anyways, I don't know what's wrong with me. The past few days I've been drooling over Moi-meme Moitie, and now I'm digging into Angelic Pretty. I always suffer of major likeness changes, only when it comes to deco and Lolita. Who knows, maybe the next week I'll have my Dada icons back D:
I want to save money on something new. Lately, I've been really short on money. And Bodyline has to save the day. I like some of their new stuff and I'm thinking of buying some. However, I have to save up 100$ for three items: purse,skirt and socks. They would be so much cheaper if the shipping fee wouldn't be that huge. Unfair fees are unfair. It's just triggering when you come across an item, decent priced, but the shipping fee is even double than the price of the item itself! I feel the need to be stabbed in the eye when such things happen to me (and I guess I'm not the only one around with the same problem).

This can't be happening

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 11:36:31 GMT

I don't even have words for every thing I feel. It's just that.. I can't believe it. I simply can't.

You were so talented, so young. You played with so much passion. You were so amazing and gorgeous. I can't believe you've started your eternal sleep. I can't. It was a shock for me and for everyone. I always wondered why do people cry for someone's death who you've never met. But I simply, I can't explain to myself why am I crying. I guess it's a passion that was lit in my heart from the moment I saw you for the first time.
Thank you for making me happy, with your existence, you made me happy. Thank you for playing all those songs I love. And I love them even more right now. Thank you for being an important part of a group I always admired.
Versailles won't be Versailles anymore without you. No one can replace Jasmine You. No one.
You will always be in my heart, in our hearts. I will always think of you. As a tribute to you, on every day of 8 March, I will bury three roses.

Rest in peace, Jasmine You.

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 10:21:42 GMT

Everything is so random these days. My mom told me she'll call a girl I know, godchild of my parents to hang out with me because she won't let me stay three months in my room, without doing anything. But I really, really hate the idea. I know it's not good for me to waste my vacation this way, but hanging out with someone won't help me at all. The thing I need before this is a psychologist. I've always wanted one =[
I would love more than anything else to hang out with persons I could call friends. But it's not that easy, at least, not for me. I wish she could understand this. I think I really need a psychologist to help me. Some of my thoughts are not things to talk about with my mom, or with a relative. Those are things I must talk about with a person who understands, and who can give me a clue about why am I like this.

13 icons

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 09:21:14 GMT

[7]Maya - LM.C
[6]Jinkaku Radio

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Icons

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 20:41:59 GMT

[6]Velvet Eden .

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Ekk

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 20:32:18 GMT

I've finally changed my layout. It was originally a Sou layout, but I changed the header and the background, as I usually do.
I absolutely love the picture I used for the header. And the damask background is one of my favorites.

Nothing much happened lately - I guess I'm saying this all the time.
I am SO absorbed by Velvet Eden. It just that it doesn't make me feel too good, but still, they have awesome sounds.
I finally got enough money to buy the wig. But the tadam is that I need to save 17 USD more for the stupid shipping. But I guess I'll have them soon. That wig absolutely rocks and I need it so much.

I plan to make a couple of icons. I'll be back soon, when I'll finish them.

Letter Meme

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 17:20:57 GMT

Kami shared this with me. It is a meme, a long one, and seems pretty interesting, sooo, let's give it a try XD

I don't really know how to tell you this, but you're a pervert. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped in your closet and I saw you sit on my mustard souflee. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that I'm alergic to your hamster. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your neighbour Martin as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember eggplant fetishism.
Go burn
-Chloe-

RULES: (Changed to my own liking)
Do the "Letter MEME". Tag the people you'd like to tag, but don't start nagging them if they don't want to do this meme. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (Anyone who has commented on your last entry):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Nostalgia strikes back

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 11:37:03 GMT

I'm back home, I arrived yesterday in the afternoon. It was not as fun as last time I went there, but it was okay tough. I drank a lot of green apple soda, it's so delicious xD. But there were no good movies, nothing good to watch. I just sat on the cushion and read books. I read about the Pandora's box, gods and goddesses, greek heroes, dinosaurs and Nostradamus. I also brought those books home to finish them. I feel such a geek when I'm reading because I have a good memory and I memorize all of that stuff I read.
   I watched a soap opera with my dad, well, he didn't even want to, but since dad has a single tv... sorry dad. And then I went on the cushion to sleep. But I couldn't. I have problems with sleeping. I hardly managed to take a nap for two hours, but then I woke up and tried to sleep. But I failed. I took my pillow and my blanket and tried to sleep on the couch. I only saw how the colors of the sky change.. At 6 I tidied up my room and watched a canadian cartoon. Damn, it was awful. I hate nights. I always did. I hate it when it's darkness. And I hate it when I am the only person awake when it's darknessT.T. After a couple of hours I took a walk with my aunt.

   And now I'm home, angry and frustrated because I thought my keyboard doesn't work properly, but I figured out that the keyboard has no problem. It's the computer itself that has a problem and is faulty of the typing issues. When I try to write something that involves 'shift', it shuts down. And also, when I start PangYa, it disconnects me and shuts down like a bastard. And since I can't afford a new computer, I guess I'll just have to reinstall windows and hope it will work.

I want to try some of the things I listed in my goals. The thing with 'wake up at a certain hour and make your own breakfast' is already off because it's complicated. Well, my mom has appointments early in the morning and it's not too nice to open the door of your bedroom and see a semi nude woman. Too bad my mom is a massagist and works home. I hate it when I can't go to bathroom for hours. This sucks pretty bad.

I already said I will save up some money for a pair of Lolita shoes. I want to see if I am able to buy some of the punk stuff of BL, including a pair of Double Deckers. I don't like them in a special way, but it does really nicely with their clothes, and gives you a Oshare/Visual touch, depending on what are you wearing. Even tough I prefer Visual kei myself, I always longed for dressing up in an Oshare way. It's so bright and colorful, and still, eccentric and geeky. Oshare kei for my day-by-day clothing. But all the Lolita I would buy would be gothic lolita, for sure. 'Gothic Lolita' makes me think of a gothic 9 year old. And it would fit me really well, I guess. Until October, I have to save loads of money, just for the day when that Canadian woman will hand me ten bags full of pretty things.

Well, I'm off to BL now. See ya

Circus

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 18:22:51 GMT

Hello there, minna. Sorry for the absence, I swear I won't allow this anymore. It's just that I doubt there's something interesting to say every day, so I only post when I feel the need, when I have something to say.
I've been wasting my days being absorbed by the antique sounds of La'Mule and Velvet Eden, and browsing through Bodyline's site. I changed the items in my wishlist, I just can't wait for October to come. I asked for a skirt, blouse, socks, headdress - all in gothic lolita style. And I have to save some money for a pair of shoes, another skirt and hat, all from Bodyline. I don't even care if people don't consider it burando, some of their stuff is Lolita, and this is what actually matters. Not burando makes you a loli. I think I can wear those in autumn.. So I have to save 63 usd.

I have also changed my background and my header, into something more dolly. I found those pretty pretty images on Flickr, sorry for not crediting, I forgot the username.

Tommorow I'll be going at my dad's place. I don't know when I will come back. Damn, that place brings me back memories. I was born there, I grew up there. It feels so nostalgic and melancholic. But I am glad that the first day I'll have to spend with my aunt. I love her, I love spending time with her. She's a great company. Last time I went to her place, she was at the kitchen, cooking, and I was sitting on the couch and watching a cool movie xD I liked it so much.. And then, when we ate, we watched Interview with the Vampire. She liked it as well ~~and I think she got a crush on Armand xD~~. She has a small apartament, but it's so cozy! I hope this time will be good movies as well. I really like watching good movies and eating all kind of fast food without the fear of getting fat. I don't get fat xD We also went to Bran that time. We chatted a lot, and I spent a lot of money. But this time I hope I won't.. I really need to save up for those things. I only have 11 dollars T.T
Even tough there's no way of logging in from there, I love that place. it's so peaceful and cozy. Now I have to recharge my iPod. I feel sick when I am in a car and I'm not listening to my music. I need it charged for at least two hours..

Maybe I'll go at the place my dad works so I can log in. Ultra high speed internet, here I come. But I'm afraid I need a new keyboard. This one is getting gayer and gayer day by day. Arrows, shift and ctrl don't work at all. So no chance of playing Pangya. Not at all. But I won't spend my precious money on a new keyboard. I need my bodyline pretties first x.x

That was all. Bye bye.

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:08:05 GMT

Well.. I have to wear glasses ;__; For a year. I have to wear them ALL THE TIME (except when I clean them or when I sleep lol).
They are cute, and pink, but.... they look awful on my dumb face( T ω ∩).. I look like a 28-year-old sexy masochist secretary, and it totally fucks my ass because I am not even 20 =_="
I wish I had larger ones, with thick frame, and black x pink or red( ´д｀)

The doctor had a cute puffy, and it looked so innocent and cute, but when I wanted to pat it he roared(゜ロ゜);; Haru was like 'OMFG bad doggy bad doggy ;__;).

Nothing new much, I renewed my wishlist and I want to buy something from F+F. I don't know why everyone complains, they have really nice accesories. But I didn't yet buy anything from them, so.. o.o"""

Well..
Bye bye(#｀ε´#)

Wealth

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 16:11:56 GMT

The wealth. I was one of those people who come from a poor family. I wasn' t wealthy at all. I grew up in a monochrome scenery, taking care of every little thing and detail. When I was a little girl, I've always dreamed of being wealthy, having everything I want, not some of the things I need. I wanted to afford the dresses I wanted as a little girl, and the dolls I wanted. Even tough it sounds very selfish, I still dream of being wealthy.
However, I was lucky tough having such a family that loves me and makes whatever they have to for making me happy. Sometimes I think that if I would have born wealthy, I wouldn't enjoy every little things, I would have considered all those expensive dresses just the things I need, and every girl has them. But probably I wouldn't consider them things that my parents put a lot of effort in.

Growing up in this state of mind made me think that if I would be wealthy, I wouldn't give it all away. But I would spend it in small quantities, buying only the things I need, rarely those I want. I would make some of my wishes come true, but only the important ones, who would surely make me happy.
I am also part of the egl community, and I see all of those girls there posting images of their wardrobes full of Lolita clothing. I know that some of them are women that work really hard for affording brand, but I wonder how much effort do the others put in to get all those beautiful and expensive clothing.

For all of my Lolita clothing, or special clothing (the ones you can't find in normal shops, just the internet) I only spend the money I save month by month, and my parents rarely pay for the things I order. So, I got used of taking care of every little thing.

Kinda major update XP

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 10:20:44 GMT

Updates:

★I changed the background to some sweet pink rococo theme.
★I changed the header to a Yue (Aile) one, with an Oshare touch that kinda fits with the background.
★I updated the sidebar, wrote basic things, gave the credit (and I feel way better about it), and used some pixels by hanako_lovely
★I also uploaded some more Yue pics to fit with the header and the theme.

I still need to update the mood theme, even tough I kinda want a J-Rock one.. Yeeha, that means.. ARGH D: All my work. For nothing!

Btw, if you were added by me, it wasn't random^ ^ It is off to you to accept or decline. Thank you~

Byebye★

Short update

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 20:19:40 GMT

I have changed my mood theme, but still not complete. It is really awful to change them. I will give the credit needed when I will finish it, I already bookmarked.

Anyway, I think I'm getting even more depressed.. It seems like everyone is against me, not on purpose tough. But everyone changed lately, or everyone has something to do with me. I feel like a little ant. Won't you smash me with your big foot?
I hate feeling this way. I hate seeing people that cry because they feel lonely, but, am I not WAY lonelier than you are? Am I not the only one that has no friends. I used to have, but I don't anymore. I'm completely lost, lonely, useless, boring, and having no goal or reason to live.
I hate it when everyone harms me and then feels sorry. What did I do wrong to all of you?
Even tough my mother apologized to me for what she had done, it still feels weird. I see her hugging me. But it is the same person who have beaten me. The face that smiles for me it was once the face that was puckered of anger, for me. It really, really feels weird..

Maybe it would be better if my sister wouldn't have came. Maybe it was better if I would forget that day, the 18th of July. This day will never exist for me anymore. Never.

I feel that I can ask anyone "Don't you know that it's not nice to hit someone who is already on the floor?". How would you feel if you were in my place? Wouldn't you just want to die? Wouldn't your mom encourage you, but right after that feel like it was just a lie ? Even if she sang it like a sweet serenade, it seemed to be covering a dark and melancholic instrumental.
I know I don't have to take all these so seriously. But I am already sick of this, so sick of this..

I talked on the phone with my dad. I didn't tell him about my mom. My dad, he is such a nice person.. I never did anything wrong to him, I know he is sensitive. He always knew about my wishes.. But if he wouldn't be my dad, he would have probably be just an acquintance, nothing much. He is not so close to me, even tough he knows what I want, or my wishlist from head to toe, he doesn't know about my Schizoid/Paranoid/Schizotypal/Avoidant/Antisocial problems. I don't know if he would understand..
I wish that I could go to the psychiatrist and tell everything I need to. My story. I am really sick of keeping everything for me. Really, really sick.. I want everyone to know about my problems, even if that would mean to be rejected even more, but I wouldn't care less..

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 19:19:23 GMT

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
( ) Are / Been In Love
( ) Been Dumped
( ) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 2

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker/Classmate
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 4

Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain (/a spanish island,actually/)
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 4

Level 6
( ) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 4

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
( ) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
( ) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 6

Level 8
( x) Had A Tea Party
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 9

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
( ) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 11

Level 10
( ) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 12

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 14

Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 14

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 14

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 17

Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 18

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
( ) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
( ) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 21

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made a Prank Phone Call
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 22

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 24

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
(x) Been Humped By Any Animal

SO FAR: 27

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 29

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 31

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
( ) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 32

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 35

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 36

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 38

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 40

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(x) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR :43

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 45

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 49

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Icon post

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 09:36:59 GMT

Teasers:

[4] GARA (Merry)
[4] KANON (An Cafe)
[2] MANA (Malice Mizer)
[2] RUIZA (D)

Another Meme

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 09:29:40 GMT

You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.

1. Where is your mobile phone? ---------------- Desk
2. Your significant other? ------------------------- Huh
3. Your hair? ------------------------------------------ Brown
4. Your mother? ------------------------------------- Book
5. Your father? --------------------------------------- Eat
6. Your favourite thing? ---------------------------- iPod
7. Your dream last night? ------------------------- Family
8. Your favourite drink? --------------------------- Soda
9. Your dream / goal? ------------------------------- Lolita
10. The room you're in? --------------------------- Mine
11. Your ex? ------------------------------------------ None
12. Your fear? ---------------------------------------- Men
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?------ Japan
14. Where were you last night? ---------------- Home
15. What you're not? ------------------------------- Rich
16. Muffins? ------------------------------------------ Yummy
17. One of your wish list items? ---------------- Bodyline
18. Where you grew up? ------------------------- Here
19. The last thing you did? ---------------------- Eat
20. What are you wearing? ---------------------- Dress
21. Your TV? ----------------------------------------- One
22. Your pets? -------------------------------------- Cat
23. Your computer? ------------------------------- Stupid
24. Your life? ---------------------------------------- Rollercoaster
25. Your mood? ------------------------------------ Sleepy
26. Missing someone? --------------------------- Yes
27. Your car? ---------------------------------------- None
28. Something you're not wearing? ----------- Socks
29. Favourite Store? ------------------------------- Bodyline
30. Your summer? --------------------------------- Fuck
31. Like someone? -------------------------------- No
32. Your favourite colour? ------------------------ Red
33. When is the last time you laughed?------ Yesterday
34. Last time you cried? ------------------------ Yesterday

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 21:21:57 GMT

I absolutely hate this day. It is one of those days when my sister comes home.. It started all weird. I had to go out with my sister on this fucking hot day, I had to walk ALOT and I came back home all tanned and I fucking hate this. Then I ate with her and with my mom, but my sister started making fun of me all of a sudden, saying things such as "She thinks she is a special snowflake" / "She is just a typical teenager that wants to be a rebel". Without saying anything, I just walked away.
A little bit later I came back to my room, and she shouted at me "Come here so I can cut your damn ugly bang" (I tried to cut it on my own, but it ended looking really awful) but I didn't want to, since she is the same person who actually laughed in my face awhile ago. I didn't want to. She insisted, mome came too.

I started crying, I only wanted them to live me alone. And then I felt this hand pulling my hair really bad. I thought it was my sister. But when I actually seen my mom swearing at me, I thought she was a stranger. Yes, it was her pulling my hear like an idiot. Yes, it was my mom who has actually beaten me. She never did that before. It was my mom, my sweet mom who I use to tell everything. All my thoughts and problems. We were so close to each other. But when I have seen her red face, and those ugly words coming out of her mouth, for me. For me. I only hoped it was a nightmare. But it wasn't. She calmed down. My sister was as rude as my mother... And then she kept giving me all kind of things to do. My sister also cut my nails. It was not a big deal tough. But imagine waking up in the morning, looking at your nails and wondering how much did they grow. She has cut my nails hideous. It looks like boy hands. I don't even know who they are. Strangers. But they will be the last persons to be my family. I just can't understand, how could those persons be the ones I used to love? How? Please explain me. What did I do to you? Is it such a big deal to refuse to cut your god damn bang? It is my FUCKING hair and I do whatever I want with it unless I don't harm anyone. They tell me I have to do what they say too, I can't just do whatever I want. But guess what. I never do what I want. I always need to do what they want.
They didn't even care that I was crying hysterical. They didn't care I am a soul as they are. I can't be a robot. I must follow my own heart as well. Who the fuck do you think you are?!
It was my mom. I have chosen to live with her after my parents divorced. She was never rude to me. NEVER. She was just impussive and bossy. But NOT rude. She knows everything about me. I know that. I trust her. She was a good mom. And now, all of a sudden. JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO CUT MY FUCKING COMB?! WTF.
I even got used to my sister making fun of me. But telling me I deserved it? Do you guys know how is it to feel a hand out of a sudden pulling your hair that hard and making your head shake? Did you thought it was actually your sister but you looked better and it was YOUR MOM? Your. fucking. mom. Angry, having no regrets, and swearing ? And after all these and after a god damn headache because I was crying for five hours. She came at me and hugged me and told me she was sorry. I know kids are beaten at least once in their lifes. But, doing that to me? To your daughter that always told you her problems without even asking. The daughter you had trust in to tell her EVERYTHING. The daughter that brings you the coffee in the morning. You start crying and hug me? I wasn't quite comfortable seeing her that way, but I don't even know what to believe.
Hey, mom. Do you know that if I wouldn't love you so much I would kill myself? You, my mom, you are the only reason why I am still breathing. I live because you wouldn't be happy without me. That's why I actually live for.

Meme

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 19:06:16 GMT

First name?::   secret XP
Middle name?::   I don't have a fucking middle name
Like your name?::   No.
Named after anyone?::   Yes, a character from a book my mom likes.
Any nicknames?::   Haruka, Haru, Chloe.
Age?::   Ah, I was about to tell you.
Birthdate?::   September 13.
Birthplace?::   Brasov.
Time you were born?::   I don't know. I think 4 PM.
Current location?::   Brasov
Height?::   1.65
Like your height?::   Yes
Eye color?::   Brown
Contacts/glasses?::   No, but I need glasses.
Hair color?::   Brown.
Natural hair color?::   Brown
Dye your hair often?::   I only dyed it once, but it was semi permanent.
Righty or lefty?::   Righty
Your favorite...
Type of music?::   J-Rock
Band or singer?::           chariots
TV show?::   Date my mom XD
Movie?::   Kamikaze Girls
TV channel?::   None.
Radio station?::   Otaku speed.
Place to be?::   A grocery store with money in my pockets!<3
Thing to do?::   Walk in a random place with my iPod listening to J-Rock (I daydream better while walking xD)
Food?::   Omlette du Fromage xD or anything that involves eggs.
Non alcoholic drink?::   Milk
Alcoholic drink?::   I only like beer
Animal?::   Anything that's small and has cute paws xD
Holiday?::   Anywhere I can find nice clothes.
Season?::   Summer
Sport?::   None. I h a t e Sports.
Place to shop?::      Internet-san XD
Clothing brand?::   Bodyline!! (Yes I am a loser but I DO NOT FAIL LIKE YOU DO^^)
Scent?::   The scent in the morning.
Restaurant?::   I don't have any.
Fruit?::   Banana
Vegetable?::   DO NOT WANT! D:
Fast food restaurant?::   Fast food because they give you the food FAST D:
Pizza topping?::   Caramelski
Ice cream flavor?::   Caramelski
Magazine?::   Kera
City?::   Mine XP
Color?::   Red.
Number?::   9
This or that...
Chocolate or vanilla?::   Vanilla
Pepsi or coke?::   Pepsi
Hot or cold?::   Cold
Black or white?::   White
Dog or cat?::   Both
French toast or pancakes?::   French Toast DO WANT <3
French fries or onion rings?::   I hate onion >< So I will be taking the fries XD
Hamburger or hot dog?::   Hamburger (but please no vegetables DO NOT WANT!)
Pepperoni or sausage?::   None D:
Britney or Christina?::   I'd pwn them both ><
McDonalds or Burger King?::   Burger King. Mc Donald's makes me puke over their cow oiled fries
50 Cent or Eminem?::   They both suck D:
Canada or Mexico?::   Canada D:
Hug or kiss?::   Hug
Movies or TV?::   None.
Truth or dare?::   Dare
Do you...
Shower daily?::   Yes
Sing in the shower?::   No
Like to sing?::   Yes
Like to dance?::   Yes
Smoke?::   Absolutely NOT.
Drink?::   Sometimes.
Cuss?::   Only english or japanese and only online xD
Dunno
Talk to yourself?::   No.
Believe in yourself?::   Uhm kinda.
Play an instrument?::   No but DO WANT
Go to school?::   Yes
Go to college?::   Not yet
Have a job?::   I DO WANT one for my burando T-T
Like your job?::   I said I DO NOT HAVE ONE
Want to get married?::   I do. But looks count ALOT you know.
Want to have kids?::   Only to dress them up in Lolita
Get along with your parents?::   Yeah
Get along with your siblings?::   Yup.
Drive?::   No
Random...
Do you think you're trustworthy?::   Yes.
Think your funny?::   No. I just say weird stuff.
Ever toilet papered someones house?::   No. That would mean sweat on my preshus clothes D:
Gone garbage can tipping?::   No.
What are your parents names?::   Why do you care ?._."
Siblings names?::   Is that important? *cough*
Do you wash your hands frequently?::   Yup
How many time a day do you brush your teeth?::   2
Collect anything?::   Burando ^-^
Ever been in love?::   Yes
In love right now?::   Yes
What color pants are you wearing right now?::   Not wearing pants xD
How does your hair look?::   Normal.
Ever had your heartbroken?::   Yeah.
Ever broken the law?::   No
Been arrested?::   No
Been out of the country?::   No D: *sings Baby Play*
Can you stick your fist in your mouth?::   No. I tried and my mouth hurts now >.>
When was the last time you got drunk?::   I never get drunk ^^
Do you do drugs?::   YEAAAH I DO IT SO I CAN AFFORD BURANDO LOLITA. No.
When was the last time you were high on anything?::   O_O" wtf
Do you prefer the lights on or off?::   It kinda depends on what I'm doing
Would you ever get plastic surgery?::   Nah.
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?::   Boxers
Do you like to laugh?::   Yes
Ever had a bloody nose?::   You mean a nosebleed? Yeah I did.
Have you ever caught a fish?::   No. Poor fishie DO NOT WANT T_T
What was the last thing you ate?::   Finetti
What time do you go to bed?::   12
What's your favorite color?::   Red
Do you like to give or recieve?::   Receive D: I'm such a selfish bitch
Are you obsessed with anything/anyone?::   Wouldn't say obsessed.
Do you live alone?::   No. I live with my mom.
Do you own a blender?::   No
Do you like the snow?::   Not at all. I can't wear pretty clothes on winter >.>
Ever been up a mountain?::   No and DO NOT WANT! D:
Ever been rootin'?::   No.
Do you like surprises?::   Yeah..

Lolita.

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 10:00:50 GMT

I've been asking myself why does Lolita affect my sub-conscious? Why does it have to make me waste my money, and why does it make me so happy when I receive them ? I wanted answers to all of these questions, and I gladly found them. I am amazed by European Lolitas (some of them actually), that they call themselves "Etilists" and think they have the right to call others "Itas".
Lolita actually came from Japan. Even if it is inspired by Victorian and Georgian periods, it still comes from Japan, or at least the first Lolitas were Japanese. And I bet they laught at us when they see those elite-lolis acting like they invented the style, feeling the need to judge everyone, forgetting that the Lolita newbs are not looking for insults, bitching, drama. They are looking for constructive criticism and etilits don't give it.
Probably Japanese lolitas are laughing when they read the egl community, because in Japan it is just a fashion, and they are having fun with it. Yes, Lolita has rules such as the skirt is bell shaped and the shoulders must no be revealed, and I agree with them. But still, they don't have to take it so seriously, like a job. When Japanese lolitas take it like Fashion.
I laugh everytime I see Lolitas must be nice. No, it is not true. EVERYONE is supposed to be nice. Not just Lolitas.

Asking why does Lolita mean so much to me? Well, it is the feminity and elegance I was always craving for. It is an escape to this ugly century we live in, with ugly buildings, bad-mannered people, people that don't know to appreciate beautifull things. I am sick of all this modernism, sick of trends and all this rubbish. I feel that Lolita represents me. I think it is impossible not to feel pretty in all those frills and laces. Impossible. It would raise my self-consciousness and it will surely make me feel like a princess, will make me feel happy.

Maybe now I can't afford that much burando, but I will work hard, I will get a good job and I will be able to buy all those burando pieces I want, whitout raping my mother's and my dad's wallets. And even if I won' t be able to get a good job to pay for them, I still want Lolita so badly..
So guess what I'll be doing.

Ahuhu

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 07:58:40 GMT

It's me again. I got this extremely awesome DIX idea. I want to start an online shopXP. I've got too many things I don't use/need/like and selling them might help my Loli wardrobe (~~You know, I seriously want one of those BTSSB Onepieces)~~. I would sell them for cheap, but there are lots and I'd probably make some moneyz. Lolita is getting out of hand, you know>.>" Speaking of which, I would have a lot of Lolita accesories from cosmetic bags, pouches, jewelry,etc. And considering my sewing skills, you can add bows/headdresses as well, even tough it might be hard for me to sell them since I have problems in giving away things that I make and I am proud of xD and noo, no Paypal because I don't have a Paypal account and I don't even want to >.>" I will use the Money Transfer thingy because it is probably the only paying method I know how to use.

I'm off to boredom right now. See ya.